The struggle is real. Some of you may read this and think I’m being a little ridiculous but it’s a true statement, coming from my heart. I have tasted something so sweet in worship. I know what it’s like to be undone in front of The Lord, I know what it’s like to leave worship on a ten and fully exhausted. I get it, I get that my eternity is waiting and those moments of worship that I love, long for and hate to let go are waiting for me in a form I will never feel, see or quench this side of Heaven. I was able to have the most enjoyable time of worship at our Fusion service. It was like Heaven on earth for a whole hour and a half, we pray and sing fervently to our Lord. The day after an event such as this is brutal to return to the mundane of my office it’s wretched when all I can think of is His praise and how I will never ever be able to fully satisfy the desire to give Him glory this side of Heaven. The older I get the more I have realized I have really messed up. I have a great job, some would even say I have lucked out in my position. I’m the regulatory specialist for a major financial institution. People work really hard to get this job, I have worked really hard to get this job and it’s not at all what I want. I would love to rewind the clock and discover my love for ministry at the time I turned seventeen. I pray for my sweet Lilly and Owen that they follow their hearts and choose wisely a joyful career. I pray that Gary and I instill great work ethic but an overall happiness in what they choose to do! My God is truly great, maybe it's not too late..
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